Thursday, September 30, 2010

The Introspection of A Child

As a child is born, it comprehends the divine truth called 'Ignorance is bliss' within itself. An infant knows nothing more than what a tree knows about its surrounding habitat. It basks in the glory of its caretakers, uttering shrill cries now and then, shitting and passing water at forbidden places, mouthing unknown words, trying to trod, walk and ultimately loses balance. It is completely ignorant to what is going on in the world which has encompassed it and why, sometimes the 'world' for an infant is just the cradle on which it is sleeping. This is the phase which is characterised by the least entropy in behavioural patterns but most entropy in actions.

But as an infant takes shape of a child, ignorance slowly paves way to cognizance. A child has a mind which thinks, but thinks quite differently. Unlike an infant, it starts deducing things that happen around. Different thoughts captivate its mind. There are no longer cries for food or fights for a pencil or wetting the bed. The introspection changes gradually. Now a child learns emotions other than those of mere crying and giggling. A friend falls down and hurts himself and the child feels a part of the pain; a teacher pats the child on its back for a job accomplished and it feels the satisfaction and smiles in contentment; someone helps the child cross a muddy road and the child feels a sense of gratitude for the person.

Slowly and steadily the thoughts of a child change their perspective. From crying for a toy, it learns to shed tears at the hands of insult; from emulating the actions of daddy, it learns to follow television celebs; from laughing when tickled the child learns to laugh at jokes and from breaking real objects, it slowly learns to break hearts. When emotions pour in, a mortal being becomes sensitive. It senses its own emotions as well as those of its surrounding fraternity. With emotions comes feelings of pleasure, remorse and nonchalance and these bring forth thoughtfulness in the child. The mind thus starts to senesce.

Someone has said 'when kids, we were asked to use pencils and pens when we grew up because mistakes of childhood can be erased but those of adulthood cannot'. I comprehend this saying in the light of the fact that mistakes have a certain boundary when a child puts its thoughts into actions. The mistakes are delimited to, for instance, a few things destroyed, less-harsh things stated, petty thefts, fighting with other children and the like. Many of these are assumed unintentional and the rest are put off by the words 'alright, he's just a child'. But as the child grows older, its mistakes lose their boundary and scope. They tend to get significant and unputdownable. With this, the introspection takes a mighty leap. On one hand a child learns to argue on its own behalf for something it feels it should not have been held guilty for and on the other hand, it learns to excogitate on the judgement of people towards others.

So with time, the world around the child changes its dimensions. It influences the growing mortal in every possible way causing it to be rigid with indifferences and soft with tender emotions. The thought process magnifies to encompass several aspects. There is no stopping to pouring of thoughts into the growing mind and the youngster can be seen brooding every second. Afterward this juvenile phase, the mind never relaxes and why, most of the time, it is entangled in conflicts of varied kinds. This mind is now characterised by a huge entropy and seldom gets contented with what it thinks.

There maybe subtle difference in a child's behaviour over years but there is certainly a quantum difference in the introspection during this period. Though we may pretend to be invariants over time inasmuch as our behavioural patterns are the same yet we are, what we think.. we indeed are, what we introspect.